Found!

You know I'm a word geek. That I'm only seeing this site now is a complete damn mystery (and I'll bet author/wordsmith John Koenig has a word for that).

The site and soon to be book is The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. I look forward to keeping it on my nightstand so that I can quickly, easily consult it when I'm feeling all... gosh…dunno.

Fer instance, there are those days (too mnay of them) where it seems like I, obviously and doofusly, can’t do anything right. What is that? Apparently,  I’m in the thick of Pâro, a noun meaning:

the feeling that no matter what you do is always somehow wrong—as if there’s some obvious way forward that everybody else can see but you…

If you remove the accent, just FYI, this is an Asturian (a Northern Spanish principality) word, a noun, meaning couple or pair. I rilly, rilly want to read more about how Mr. Koenig crafts his lexemes. Ya know?

There’s Wytai a noun meaning:

a feature of modern society that suddenly strikes you as absurd and grotesque...

This morning, and for that matter every damn morning, the Tangerine Buffoon and the entire Republican Party are wytai.

I often feel Scabulous – proud of my physical scars. Evidence of my success in playing this game of life.

Here’s one that I def NEVER, EVER feel:
Lachesism
noun

the desire to be struck by disaster—to survive a plane crash, to lose everything in a fire, to plunge over a waterfall—which would put a kink in the smooth arc of your life, and forge it into something hardened and flexible and sharp, not just a stiff prefabricated beam that barely covers the gap between one end of your life and the other.

A long time back, I worked with a fellow who seemed to honestly suffer from this. He didn’t make any attempt to jazz up the life he felt was tame, mundane. Nope. He seemed to be in a perpetual state of lachesism – eagerly waiting, anticipating catastrophic natural events – like floods, tornadoes and such.

Me? Adversity is like waiting for the bus – you might miss one but there’ll be another along in a few. And if I want excitement, if I want to put a kink in the rarely smooth arc of my life, I’ll make it happen for my own damn self, thenkyew.

Here’s one with which I'd like to be WAY less familiar:
Jouska
noun

a hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head—a crisp analysis, a cathartic dialogue, a devastating comeback...

Yup.

The emotion that I dearly wish more folks – friends, foes and assholian politicos – experienced daily:
Occhiolism
noun

the awareness of the smallness of your perspective, by which you couldn’t possibly draw any meaningful conclusions at all, about the world or the past or the complexities of culture…

and
 Sonder
noun

 the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own…

Sorta semi/demi related:
Heartworm a noun for:

a relationship or friendship that you can’t get out of your head, which you thought had faded long ago but is still somehow alive and unfinished, like an abandoned campsite whose smoldering embers still have the power to start a forest fire...

A zillion years ago I dated this guy. We were compatible enough. We had fun but…eh…no Amazing Bob levels of magic. We dropped out of eachother’s lives. That happens with so many friendships and relationships. No big. Right? Jan’s a nice memory and yet I wonder about him. It’s not that there are forest fire embers – no, no, NO. It’s more that he was an interesting someone I’d like to still know as a friend.

So maybe that's a different word. CLEARLY, I need this dictionary! Also too, go to the links, read his full definitions. They're beautiful, molto evocative and lyric. The man's a goddamned artist.

And, by the by, all paintings in today's post were done by yurs truly.