It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.
~ William Blake
Why? I don’t expect an enemy to have my back, to treat me with respect, to behave decently. If/when they do, it’s a shocking surprise. It doesn’t mean that I automatically forgive, forget or disregard all the reasons for prior distrust and distance. Fuck no. No fool, I.
When someone whom I’ve trusted with my heart, a person I’ve loved and supported, does me dirt or fails to help me even in the smallest of ways… well, babies, that’s a whole ‘nother ballgame. I’m an independent cuss – a wary motherfucker. While I’m well aware that every last one of us makes mistakes and has limitations; that we are all, on occasion, the asshole (I may, in fact, have a B.A. in Assholedom), if you play the self absorbed, no-one-matters-but-me-ME-ME card often enough, the door to Donnaville locks shut. See above – “fool?” Not me.
Life, for the vast majority of us is a long, winding hard road. I know that it most assuredly ain’t just me who’s swimming against the current. Kind words, a nice casserole, the odd, amusing card, pretty pics or a funny text go a long way toward buoying my spirits. I try to give as good as I get ('cept for the casserole part because, as you well know, me and cooking aren't on felicitous terms).
This is a blistering motherfucker of a year. We’re all having a hell of a time staying afloat. A couple of acquaintances keep after me to contribute or take part in their wonderful, laudable Resistance efforts. I wish I could do more but, speaking of assholes, Nf2’s really getting in my way.
I’m meeting with Doc Plotkin on Monday to discuss where we go from here vis-à-vis my seizure inspiring bean tumors. Paraphrasing old Will:
To slice me open or not to slice, that is the question:Meanwhile, today, I have a physical therapy appointment for my still recovering spine. I believe I’m improving on this score. I took two walks yesterday as well as two rides on the elliptical. Yes, I was in some pain afterward BUT this is why the little baby Bast created Tylenol.
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous meningiomas,
Or to take arms against a sea of intruding motherfuckers
And by opposing end them.
Right?!
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