Daddy at Daddy at 43. Me at 21. |
My heart is in the process of shattering. Yes, I knew this was coming but, Daddy always bounces back – why not this time too?
A truth that few people appreciate is that, at the root, everything hurts.
~ Tom Holt, In Your Dreams
Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word.
~ George R.R. Martin
You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it
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To hurt is as human as to breathe.
~ J.K. Rowling
Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence.
~ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
later that night
i held an atlas in my lap
ran my fingers across the whole world
and whispered
where does it hurt?
it answered
everywhere
everywhere
everywhere
~ Warsan Shire
Do you know the feeling, when your heart is so hurt, that you could feel the blood dripping?
~ Lady GagaIs it better to have had a good thing and lost it, or never to have had it?
I wanted to be his life preserver, the thing that would keep him afloat. Instead, he became my anchor.~ Amanda Grace
I couldn't stand here, hanging on, when the very thing I held disappeared more with each passing day.
~ Becca Fitzpatrick
And when great souls die, after a period peace blooms, slowly and always irregularly.
~ Maya Angelou
Grief is the price we pay for love.
~ Queen Elizabeth II
The gift my father gave me every day of my life was he believed in me
~ Jim Valvano
No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.
~ C.S. Lewis
My daddy was my hero—he was always there for me when I needed him, he listened to me and taught me so many things, but most of all he was fun.
~ Bindi Irwin
Between my wonk-ass surgery habit and the blasted pandemic, I haven’t seen him in a year and a half and now, I won’t ever see him again. Here's one of my favorite stories about him, How to Ruin a Tender Moment. Fits well in Pride Month, n'est-ce pas?
We’re counting down the hours, the minutes til he leaves us. This blows.
Do not stand at my grave and weep
ReplyDeleteI am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.
Thank you. That's wonderful!
DeleteOh Donna. I know you were hoping to make the trip to PA for a visit soon, knowing it would possibly be a goodbye. And I’m so sorry that couldn’t happen. Your love for each other overflows even on my iPad screen. (The two photos make me smile and cry. The crying part is a major achievement since my tear ducts took early retirement long ago.). Your father looks to proud of you and happy to see you. Blessings.❤️
ReplyDelete:-) Thank you. I wish I was there right now.
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